Silence is Golden - Part I

Kara Mia
Mar 8, 2023
4 min read

Updated: Apr 19, 2024

A 3-Part Novel Excerpt

Introduction

"I like to believe there is a Universal flowing breath. And if that's true, it must have a cadence, a tone, and even a language. If the Universe has a language, there is a path to learning it, and that path begins with your ability to listen.

There is an attainable level of stillness and introspection where "The Silence" lives; this is where the breath, rhythm, and music reveal themselves. The Universe lends us a fine example of Hermetic principles here by displaying that although it has a clear voice you can decipher, it becomes present only in Silence. By allowing your thoughts to become quiet, you begin to understand the Truth of what the Universe is so effortlessly saying.

Use your voice for good, but learning to listen is invaluable to understanding the Truth. We must get quiet to hear that breath, feel that rhythm, and dance to the tune of this Universal language.

The Process of Meditation

"Silence is Golden."

I had heard the saying a million times, but it didn't make sense. And it didn't seem to match my values or how I used my voice to "create the changes I wanted to see in the world." Funny enough, my vocal expressions weren't doing anything of the sort anyway. In fact, I was attracting some pretty painful experiences with the aggressive nature of my words in my more ferocious moments.

As karma would have it, I later faced a circumstance that left me feeling alone and betrayed, with no outlet for justice or reparations. For once, there was nothing I could say or do to reverse what had happened or to reduce my anguish, and seemingly nowhere to turn for an answer on "how to let it go." I felt paralyzed by the injustice, which only created more despair. These emotions stayed with me for over six months, and my heart felt like it was being eaten alive. I had read and regurgitated endless inspirational quotes and affirmations. Still, my knowledge of applying them was only as good as my (mis)understanding of those guiding whispers at the time. One thing was clear; I had exhausted my current skill level in seeking peace. I was beginning to realize that my overly vocal operating system was ineffective, ultimately bringing more harm than good to myself and those around me.

I knew the experiences in which we utilize our acquired knowledge shape our character and perspectives on life. With that, I did what I had read to do a million times over but chose this time to immerse myself entirely; give Silence a try. So, I got on my mat and sat utterly silent. My anxiety skyrocketed, and my mind was racing with chaotic thoughts. With every breath, my mind searched for a pertinent reason to move or get up to complete a different task. I had to keep repeating in my head, "it's okay to be quiet; it's okay just to sit here, be still."

Again and again, I brought my attention back to my breathing. After about 40 minutes of breathing and using my mind space toward relaxing each part of my body, my mind finally began to slow down to a rate at which my thoughts felt more like dreams than reality. Now, this is where things started getting interesting.

Once I allowed the Silence a space inside me, and my thoughts floated over me like clouds, I could choose the ones I wanted to lend my focus. My heart rate was resting almost simultaneously, and my mental and heart voices ceased the back-and-forth chatter that had always made it challenging to pick the side that would steer me in the more positive direction.

It was finally still in there. Just nothingness. A reel of my thoughts and feelings far off in the distance, but only a vast space in my present field. I had never felt more peace or control over my life and choices as I did at this moment.

"The Unmoved Mover" *

Shortly after, though, I was greeted with something unexpected and even more profound. A different voice was beginning to whisper. A vaguely familiar voice that I had never paid any attention to, or maybe I was afraid to listen to it because I didn't know from where it was coming. Either way, it was a strange feeling, so I knew it wasn't coming from the heart or the head. I remained silent and let it play into tune without judgment. I then brought my awareness to the topic troubling me and began to sift through the feelings each thought was conjuring. As I allowed my chosen thoughts and feelings to stay present, I started asking questions, and those questions rendered physiological responses in me. Like, a drop in my stomach or twitches in my blood flow. Almost as if I was receiving an answer... from within.

Wtf was happening?! "Who is that?" I wondered. "Am I going crazy?!"

Then it clicked; the voice was coming from my gut! It was my spirit, my intuition. THERE she is!

She does exist; I just had to be quiet enough for her to speak!

"This is what meditation feels like," I thought, "I did it!" I was so elated and proud.

Through this journey, I found the source from which we receive all the information we need as human and energetic bodies. I had always justified the two-sided story as a cosmological gift; to observe a situation from both the head and the heart's perspective. "I'm well versed," I thought. But when I got honest with myself, although those two voices held value, I never felt settled in my decision to side with one or the other.

I now know it is because a third voice exists, which doesn't operate from logic or emotion but intuition. Now that I had finally found my internal compass, it was time to learn about its components and how to use it wisely.

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~ Silence is Golden - Part II ~